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some clear patterns are starting to emerge in how i write VNs; all the best stuff happens in the edit. i write something that i feel like has some good bones but is frustrating and lackluster in ways i can't quite figure out, and then i get to the point where i'm styling all the text and seeing how it flows onscreen and suddenly the ideas firehose comes on and i get blasted into the stratosphere. this is how it happened with Potion Stand Story, and Iron Company Chapter 1, and i think it's probably a pretty typical pattern. but as someone who is now 33 and didn't get medicated for ADHD until 26, finishing stuff is still a little new to me. there's always a bit of panic before the edit where i'm like WHAT IF IT'S BAD WHAT IF IT ISN'T AS GOOD AS THE LAST THING AAAAAAAA WHAT IF THE GOOD THING WAS A FLUKE


i am MOST OF THE WAY through editing chapter 2. i've reached the final conflict. but it's a real frog-in-well situation. "at this rate i'll be done in a few days," i say, and then more ideas pop up and i write more. i kept reaching the halfway point and then writing something new so the halfway point was just where i was at for several days LMAO

editing is where the text styling happens, where i put in all the little pauses and decide which letters should wiggle and which ones should stay still and which ones should be big or red or italic.


i need you to do something for me: when you play a video game that has more than just bold and italicized text, when it has little pauses and wiggles and things i need you to psychically beam appreciation at whoever did that, because that is SO MUCH WORK AND TESTING OH MY GOD I HAD NO IDEA UNTIL I WAS DOING IT MYSELF. even though i have some pretty standardized practices at this point (0.4s pause after long sentence, 0.3s pause after short sentence, 0.2 pause after a comma, 0.1 pause when someone st-{w=0.1}stutters, various shake intensities for different moods, specific size increases and decreases depending on the volume i want to imply they're speaking at) every single line has to be tested and scrutinized for flow. and it takes. a long time. it's a lot of copy-paste. i've set up some code snippets in VSCode now (finally made the switch from Atom, which got abandoned last year RIP in peas) but i haven't actually finished doing that (tedious; somehow more tedious to me than what i'm doing-- i never claimed that i make any sense as a person). so a lot of times i'm just copy and pasting in all this shit:


shoutout to VSCode for pansexual syntax highlighting. i have an Obsidian document set up with click-to-copy code snippets which has been saving me some time but it's still... it's a lot. you know. 5000+ lines of code and most of them need text styling.

currently the chapter is 5886 lines of code. by comparison, chapter 1 is 5511... and i'm definitely Not Done so that gap is going to keep widening. i don't think it'll be significantly longer playtime-- some of the branches in this one represent pretty big chunks and it's hard to actually tell. we'll see! it'll be pure text for the time being (text comes first, everything else is second to text and i don't think i'm gonna let myself do art for any other chapters until i get chapter 1 into a state i consider pretty finished) so i hope you're ready for some questionable descriptions of images i haven't drawn again.

i did put in one sound though, because i couldn't stop myself. you'll see. or hear i guess

also: there's another possible bad end. i think i'll probably be sneaking at least one into each chapter. this one's a lot easier to blunder into, because i am evil, and i want to make you anxious when you make choices. my previous philosophy was "messy success > littering the game with game overs" but Slay The Princess has made me into sickos.jpg and i can have a little game overs as a treat.

when i start to feel burned out on copy-paste and testing i switch over to working on these discord emoji lol


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Kairosoft's Game Dev Story is my go-to for when everything is bad. the first time i played it was when i was in the middle of a complete mental breakdown in 2014, and i discovered it was just the right amount of interactive. like it doesn't take a ton of mental effort but it takes juuuuuust enough attention to sort of dissociate from some sort of miserable status like "Ongoing Panic Attack" or "Body Crying Out For Death Due To Period Cramps" or "(Gun-Cocking Noise From Stomach) You Don't Wanna Know What Happens If You Leave This Bathroom Today" kinda situations, and its gameplay loop is just addictive enough (without being evil) to keep me invested. it's a mobile game done extremely right. you pay for it once and it rewards you for years, because every new game is a little different.

anyway, since i've had I Can't Believe It's Not Covid, i've been playing it every night while i wait for the coughing to stop. (you know how it is. you lie down and everything... has to... you know... uuughhh.) half the fun of it, for me, is the part where you name your game before you release it. i can't come up with serious titles to save my life a lot of the time but coming up with parody titles is my bread and butter. here are some of my best titles so far:

• Samurai Shitstorm
• a Game Dev/Simulator game called GameGame DevDev StoryStory
• FPS/War game called Fieldbattle
• plane sim named Mr. Planes
• follow-up ship sim called Mr. Ships (i'm imagining these as mascots sort of in the vein of Dr. Wright of SimCity fame)
• Toot Ninja, and sequel: Toot Ninja Retooted
• Checkers game that i named "Chess". welcome to my twisted mind
• Frontyard Faceball (a baseball game, obvi)
• i forgot to name my first game that made it into the Hall of Fame this round and it just went out as Game #23. so i made a sequel to it called Game #24. i think eventually i'll sequel it again like. Game #24 II, or something
• Seven Eleven Story (convenience store simulator game)
• a golf game i couldn't think of a good pun for so i just called it Better Golf

P.S. i had NO FUCKIN IDEA until i looked at the Wikipedia page that this game is actually from 1997, it just wasn't released until 2010 in the US. it's a keeper. i've never had a phone without it installed since 2014. it's apparently on Steam too!

i have also been playing:
Metal Slug Tactics - finally, a Metal Slug game made for me! great little tactics game i could nitpick but won't. my non-nitpick picking that i feel is much more important than any criticism of the gameplay is that i wish that the enemy units weren't made up of so many uhhhhh unfortunate cartoon stereotypes, like, please just use the funny aliens or something lol, it is 2024 we don't need to be doing this

Slay the Princess - i'm a year late to this party, but holy shit. my friend got me this on the condition of "merry early christmas, please talk to me about this, i need to talk to someone about this" and i see exactly why. incredible little puzzle box of a game, and made in Ren'py so i can't wait to eventually cut it open and look at its insides take a peek at the code and see how it's built once i'm done playing it.

today's life update is that i've been allowed to breathe through both nostrils 75% of the time since last night! maybe by 2025 i'll stop coughing. ALSO: i'm halfway through editing a first draft of Chapter 2 of Iron Company. i've been a miserable wretch all month but i've been getting some good writing done regardless. hoping i can get back to properly drawing soon too.
 
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third anniversary shop update
okay, we'll get the blatant advertising out of the way first. it is my shop's third anniversary! i've added some new stuff: lots of prints! a few stickers! a notepad! plus there's tons more stuff there that was there already. notably, there is Potion Stand Story and Iron Company merch now. my first official merch for my visual novels!!! it's only a hop, skip, and a jump from here to nendoroids, right?!



 
it's OC-tober, NERDS
i say, nerdily. OC-tober is one of those 30 day drawing challenges like inktober and swordtember and mermay and whatnot. you draw your OCs (original characters. like your characters from your projects or your RPs or whatever) every day. i do it real loose and wiggly. i don't bother with sticking to a prompt list, and i don't even actually draw every day. sometimes i just repost or touch up old stuff. I DO WHAT I WANT. LOOK AT MY CHARACTERS. I LOVE THEM. HERE IS SOME OC-TOBER ART.

Day 1: a Petra sticker design (available in my shop above, as you can see) + a silly edit



Day 2: i described Erika as "the Navi to Sykes' Link" in the group chat and then had to draw it. love drawing my very serious little man in cosplay.



Day 3 & 4 (sketched one day, colored the next): a suggestion by [personal profile] kayin from the request post. and i mean yes obviously Utena Petra. obviously. i'm not sure why i hadn't already done this. princely women...



i can't promise i'll draw of them, but if you have any OC-tober ideas you wanna drop in the request post comments, please do so. ;D i enjoy playing to the audience.

my very important anime opinions from this week's Anime Day

Dead Dead Demons DeDeDeDe Destruction (completed) - a companion for the manga imo, this adaptation clearly had to make some impossible choices between quality and length, and some of the choices they made were... baffling. "episode zero" covers some of the END of the manga?? but i still liked it overall. finish the manga, then watch the anime lol. content warning for this one if you end up checking it out: a teacher/student relationship is in there; no laws are broken and it's certainly not framed as ideal. Inio Asano is not here to make you comfortable all the time ok

Uzumaki (episode 1) - one of my fav manga and another "that's gonna be hard to adapt" situation, the pacing feels WACK but idk how else you could have done it-- other than maybe splitting it up into 2 chapters at the commercial break, which i think maybe would have felt less confused? the choice to keep it greyscale is A+, and the surreal never-quite-still animation style is working for it.

Dan Da Dan (episode 1) - since this is new... content warning for Relatively Silly Alien Rape Threats in the first episode if you pick this one up this season, which i expect won't be the last time because this is not my first rodeo with Science Saru lol. that aside-- the animation is wild, it's very funny and charming, i like the premise and our two weirdo main characters, hope this one turns out to be a banger

Monster (episodes 13 & 14): Monster is good. i have nothing insightful to say about Monster. it's good as hell. i love Kenzo Tenma with my whole heart and soul

Hellsing Ultimate (episode 2) - high-grade schlock. Alucard is my husband and Integra is my wife; so it has been since my teens. kind of impressed by how well it cleans up the manga's storyline, which i barely remember but which i do remember being A Nonsense Mess a lot of the time lol. content warning for Hellsing is pretty much everything, and you're not allowed to be mad at me if you go watch it because i said i liked it. actually that last part applies to every anime i post about. i'm tired of feeling like i can't mention my favs in public without some people assuming i endorse every sin committed, i already had to put up with that when i was a child trying to enjoy things during the tail end of the Satanic Panic okay. oops sorry this turned into a rant sorta oops i've been thinking about this a lot lately sorry

Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex (episodes 14 & 15) - i love The Batou Show. i don't have anything insightful to say about GITS that hasn't already been said, at least not yet. i just think Batou is a Type of Guy and i like him. i wish the future still had discs and things that go click. i think i maybe said this all before

No Guns Life (episodes 7 & 8) - i think it has a cool premise and some cool aesthetics/worldbuilding, but i also haven't really been wowed by it yet. i'm hoping it'll show me some teeth. i like when gun man become funny scribble like Alphonse Elric though

Hare + Guu (episodes 17 & 18) - this is a 2000s comedy anime that i don't think most western anime fans have heard of, and it can be pretty hit-or-miss (with the expected Discomforts you'd get from... like i said, 2000s comedy anime) but when it hits it fucking hits, episode 18 was a riot. this would have been the LOLZ TEH RANDOM!!11 anime of my teens had i known of it back then lol

other things that are happening

  • i'm attempting to read Hellboy. this is surprisingly difficult because i'm used to shoving manga into my face constantly and i keep reading the pages in the wrong order. i want to absorb the minimalist backgrounds and learn how to incorporate that energy into my own work!!
  • Tia jumped from the windowsill onto my boob at 5:45 AM today and it hurt really bad/startled the shit out of me but it also woke me up right in the right part of my sleep cycle to actually feel refreshed upon waking (which simply has not happened the last... 9 months) so i can't even be mad. i will definitely get sore boob tomorrow and be convinced i have cancer (i can't tell you how many times this has happened it's ridiculous)
  • it's cold enough to wear sweatshirts again! i'm sad about cohost though. i bought my current crop of big pullover sweatshirts the first winter i was on cohost and i ended up associating them with cozy cohost-and-cat-and-chill-and-draw time BWAAGGHGHGHG COHOST AAAAAAAGHBBHGH BUHUHUHUH HHUHhhh sniff snorf wehhhhhhhh
  • in cohost's wake i am posting in All The Places, truly. i've dusted off pillowfort and made a new mastodon account. i had weird times on mastodon.social (people yelling at me for not cwing things like literally mentioning a very small injury... c'mon) and mastodon.art pretty much just ignored me when i was last trying to post there, but i don't want to write off the whole concept because cohost taught me that smaller, quieter spaces are worth something too, and pursuing the Biggest Possible Audience is not only not always great for your mental health, it's not even actually better for your sales if you're like me and you have to hustle online all the time lol. i'm hoping i can find a good balance-- i can't possibly keep up with the feed of every website and discord i have some presence in, but i also don't want to be the person who posts and runs and never interacts.
...and why not also an excerpt from chapter2.rpy

chapter2.rpy
erika "Honestly, I don't see why you don't just ignore him. You're leaving in the morning anyway."

sykes "(Good chance we'll keep running into him if we come through here regularly... I want to know what he's up to.)"

erika "Eh, that's a good point, I guess."

erika "Keep your friends close..."

sykes "(...and your enemies within strangling range.)"

sometimes they're on the same page (about guys they hate that you, the readers, don't know anything about yet). go play my visual novel demo if you wanna meet these characters!
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here are some silly excerpts from the chapter 2 WIP script before i get started on Etsy orders today!

excerpt from chapter2.rpy
petra "Sykes. You are making pain faces..."

sykes "Yeah. Gonna have to switch off driving with someone else, or I'll be hopping around on one leg tomorrow."

petra "Ah ha ha ha. <Hopping Man.>"

sykes "What?"

petra "<The Hopping Man?> You never heard that one?"

sykes "Guess not."

petra "Ah, in Eisenarm they say to children, if you are outside too late, <The Hopping Man> will come."

petra "He jumps on one leg, so he is not very fast. But he will chase you and chase you, and if he catches up before you get inside... he will grab you by the legs and pull you into a hole!"

sykes ". . ."

sykes "Just... a hole?"

petra "Mmhm. A hole in the ground."

sykes "...This is something you tell children?"

petra "I was never late getting home."

excerpt from chapter2.rpy
"(VISUALS: we are in another kinda dumpy town at some kind of cute but dumpy row houses)"

petra "This is where... you know people?"

sykes "Hn."

sykes "This is where I was living for a while, last year."

petra "Ah..."

sykes "..."

sykes "...A couple of ground rules, before we go in there."

sykes "This time, you let me do the talking, and you hang back."

petra "???"

sykes "Just... smile, or something. Whatever it is you do that makes people like you."

sykes "And... keep your hands visible."

petra "?????????? ?? ?"

sykes "Can you do that?"

petra "Yes, but why...?"

sykes "If I tell you, you’re gonna get all nervous about it."

petra "Well, I am nervous NOW!"

sykes "Don’t be. It’s fine."

petra "All day you have been Mr. Secrets Man! What is happening?"

petra "...What am I about to find out about you?"

sykes "Nothing interesting."

petra "Okay, well--"

petra "WAGH!!"

"At least once a day, she forgets how tall the truck is and steps out into thin air."

sykes "Again?"

"At least she landed on her feet this time."

petra "Usually when I get out of a vehicle, the ground is there!"

petra "How is it you don’t have any problem?!"

sykes "...I look where I’m going."

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