doodlemancy

WHAT'S UP GANG, I'M WEATHERING THE SLINGS AND ARROWS OF OUTRAGEOUS MISFORTUNE HERE AT DOODLEMANCY HQ. i tried to put this under a cut but it doesn't work probably because of the comic relief giant text or something sorry sorry vent post sorry

SUNDAY
• microwave go asplode. buy new microwave. sigh.
• AN interpersonal conflict transpired that i will not recount because it has already been settled but let it be known that it was GNARLY and i was VERY UPSET for the next 24 hours ish
• also played some Vampire Survivors. loving the Castlevania DLC

MONDAY
• VERY UPSET DUE TO THE AFOREMENTIONED EVENT for most of the day
• also felt like death due to my stupid uterus wasting all my goddamn blood on its insufferable hobby as usual
• also played some Vampire Survivors, that was nice

TUESDAY
• tried really hard not to freak out
• also played some vampire survivors
• 2 clonazepam evening
• everything looked really bad but i went to bed with shred of hope left in my heart

WEDNESDAY
• FUCK
• that's what i get for having a shred of hope i guess
• the very moment i sit down to try to distract myself from all of the FUCK with some drawing and vidya games, the power goes out
• for 6. fucking. hours.
• sobbing emotional meltdown because i just wanted to numb myself and not wallow in despair/panic and i can't concentrate on reading and i can't concentrate on anything and i just wanted to play a stupid video game and not think about how fucked my country is
• Vampire Survivors is not as good on mobile with someone with my kind of chronic pain and also it's really hard to start all the way over
• and it was one of those "tease you with later and later power-on estimates" situations with the power company of course, because Portland General Electric needs my bill to be $40 higher per month every single year or their CEO will starve to death on the street, but they can't afford to take 2 seconds to tell the website what's happening. text on a website COSTS SO MUCH MONEY, YOU KNOW,
• AND I HAD JUST BOUGHT GROCERIES SO WE HAD TO PUT THEM ON ICE IN A PANIC when the estimate finally got more honest
• try to play Tiny Glade once power is back on but it still does not work (persistent issues with GeForce graphics cards that cause scary overheating and other weird behavior)
• whatever. more Vampire Survivors
• also see that another game i kinda wanna try is out (Metal Slug Tactics). but i bought a surprise microwave this week. so maybe i'll try to get a Steam refund on Tiny Glade since it literally does not work on my computer and then refund/points i have would cover it
• extended battle with Steam customer service trying to get them to fucking read. "you played it more than 2 hours" YEAH WHILE I WAS TROUBLESHOOTING, DINGUS. this exchange started off with me being very friendly and providing plenty of reasonable evidence as to why i was owed a refund (linking specifically to the thread where the developer admits to and explains the problem and that they're working on it with Nvidia but have made no progress so far, which i sympathize with-- i'll 100% for sure re-buy it if they ever get the problem fixed). after 5 rejected attempts to communicate the problem, i loosened the seal on the foul demon Karen, telling them this is is fraud actually, you have now stolen money from me by selling me a game that i cannot play even though my PC technically meets the specs, and threatening to take it to the FTC and my state's AG. went to bed pissed about getting screwed by Steam, who i've NEVER had a problem with despite my cursed status as a magnet for exactly this kind of "outlier problem nobody wants to pay attention to/knows how to solve" kind of issue lmao

THURSDAY
• Mom sick. i'm coming down with whatever she has. which means no anime day this week, and no Goblin Alone Time to recover from my emotional exhaustion, and uuuuuuuugh i am probably about to get slaughtered by a virus soon
• got to talk to my therapist and at the very end of the call Steam popped up with the refund i was owed (fuckin finally, that was after 6 tries)
• not feeling too bad myself yet, but too emotionally exhausted to do anything but fuck around
• Vampire Survivors (still waiting for the refund)
• make something fun
• feel kinda better

FRIDAY
• still not very sick. time to try to do some work before i-
• where did the internet go
• NO
• FOR FUCKING FUCK'S SAKE
• Netgear router-modem-thing pronounced dead at approximately 1:30 PM, rest in fucking pizza
• Best Buy trip. in mask. sweaty and greasy because i was going to take a shower later after doing some chores. find out i need new glasses so bad because i literally cannot find things using the signs without help
• $$$$ threeee hundreeeddd and fiiifty doollar roooooouteeeerr purchaseeeeeeee surpriseeeeeee $$$$$$ (i wanted a nice one, tariffs are coming hahaha lolsob)
• please god let the setup be easy. have i not suffered enough? i am already being crucified. must we nail this cross to a larger cross. but ha ha i know it won't be easy because it's never easy with a new router, something insane will always happen, it is a crying-and-hair-pulling event every single time, it will NEVER be good, the instructions are ALWAYS wrong about something or your ISP shits its pants about it or something and then it's PHONE HELL FOR YOU, BUSTER
• try to believe anyway
• follow the instructions
• instructions, predictably, do not work
• 6 hour ordeal during which the first chat agent asks me for the wrong type of MAC address and says my router doesn't work but they can get me a tech tomorrow, second agent (phone) calls me to follow up and says no, no agent until sunday, tries to help me again, asks for my CMAC address, secretly typoes it, and tells me nope there's nothing we can do, wait until sunday, i get mad, i try to bruteforce my way through, i complain about how bad the xfinity app is on google play because self-setup just isn't working right, agent 3 (chat again) tells me my coax cable must be bad, diagnostics on the router say the coax cable is fucking fine, i get an e-mail about a dev response to my app review that links me to a sprinklr chat which is apparently the only way to contact anyone who actually knows what they're doing. and in sprinklr you can send photos. so i send tons of photos of the router and my diagnostics and stuff. some guy named Ray discovers the CMAC typo and fixes my connection instantly. i tell him he is a superhero and that he has saved an Etsy shop and my sanity and my life
• (for the record i was nothing but cordial with everyone i spoke to, this was not a "people refusing to help" situation this was a "people not really being equipped to help" situation mostly. i only undo the seal on the foul demon Karen when some very clear lines have been crossed and there is no longer a sympathetic interpretation of what's happening to me. I WORKED RETAIL.)
• at this point i have been in a state of Stress Rage for so long i can smell my own armpits
• eat a butterscotch candy in the shower while i turn the water up and overheat myself on purpose so that i can turn it to cold and reset my entire Sensory Being

SATURDAY (TOMORROW)
• i assume either my graphics card will die or i will get appendicitis or something
• also the continued slow slide further into fascism i guess
• also probably Vampire Survivors
• this is fine.jpg

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From:

ysabetwordsmith

>> also felt like death due to my stupid uterus wasting all my goddamn blood on its insufferable hobby as usual <<

What a brilliant way to put it!

I find that iron-rich foods sometimes help. I know some folks like to gorge on ice cream, but I tend to be more solution-oriented than pleasure-oriented. YMMV

>> not think about how fucked my country is <<

I'm thinking ahead about a post on how to deal with 3C global warming, since people just selected that path. It's their free will. I'd rather not be in this handbasket, but as long as I'm here, I may as well hand out road maps since I've been there, done that, used the T-shirt to make molotovs.

>> tariffs are coming <<

Maybe that'll finally wake people up to the vulnerabilities of an overextended supply line. Probably not, but who knows, maybe the damn pig will fly.